it's saturday night for goodness sake and i'm at home!
stayed home and did LSM project.
so much more to do yet so little time. whose fault? sigh.
enough of the project part.
i wonder how's service today? hmmmmm...
anyway, i went to the doctor again today.
this time round was because of my back.
i felt like an old hag, aching all over all the time.
what to do~ it's a fact.
oh well, doctor said nothing serious.
just gotta take note for the time being. that's what they all said.
anyway, i wasn't in school yesterday. not again~ yes, again.
seriously speaking, i'm dreading to go school.
i was all alone at home sleeping and i heard something LOUD at 9plus in the morning.
the clock somehow fell and the glass broke into bits and pieces.
it fell right at the floor in front of my bed.
Thank God i was fine, safe and sound!
i just ignored it and went back to sleep, thinking it was a dream.
i woke every now and then, looking at the floor.
somehow trying to fool myself it was a dream but no! it's not!
just gotta step back to reality and clear the mess.
how miserable can this be? speechless.
school definitely is the last place i want to be at.
yet i felt so bad at times for not picking up my friends' phone calls.
think. i'm staying in Tampines and yet i'm always dragging myself to school.
what about those who stay at the other end of Singapore?
it triggers me. frankly speaking, i felt a sense of guilt.
of cause, of cause i'm afraid of being debarred from final year examinations.
still, it's not a motivation for me to drag my feet to school.
honestly, at times, i do hate myself for being like this.
it's killing me like seriously!!!
somehow, somewhere, there's this small lil voice in me.
sensitive or paranoid? who knows...
