beautiful dreams

2009-09-25T03:19:00.002+08:00

the ugly truth: he's waiting for someone better.

i tried and i tried.
pretending that nothing took place, i saw nothing.
the truth is, it affects me a lot.
deep down, i know we can never be like before.
my heart beats so fast like it can never slow down.
i'm really lost.
not that lil girl but, me, i'm lost.
guess, she's the reason you're busy.

there's more going on here than meets the eye.

2009-09-13T00:45:00.006+08:00

it may be a moment of impulse.

when i'm no longer as important.

can you see the difference like i do?

i doubt so.

you step back thinking i'm asking for more.

the more i know i should let go, the more i want to hold on to it.

if you could stay.

if you could hear me out.
we're no longer the somebody and someone.

i'm so selfish, i want it all, just for myself.

when your heart wants differently from what your mind is thinking.

i thought it's over, it's not.

maybe, i'm starting to ask for more.

perhaps, what i should do now is stop letting it bother me.

just let things be.

because, you're never serious about it.

Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow.

Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me, and be there.

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you.
But I did, I do, and I will.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,

who calls you back when you hang up on him,

who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,

or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...

wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,

who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,

who holds your hand in front of his friends,

who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.

One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU...

The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

2009-09-07T19:28:00.004+08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go

1 paper down.
2 more to go!
BUCK UP!

stop it, wuian.
stop letting the thoughts run in your mind!
S-T-O-P!
F-O-C-U-S!

as much as i know, i'm afraid.
i'm just having high hopes and expectations.
i thought everything was fine, isn't it?
there's a pattern i realise.
when you received too much, it becomes rather blend the following days.
this cycle just goes on, repeating.
i'm too naive.
things weren't as simple as i thought at the very beginning.
if you could let me in.
let me unlock it totally.
i don't understand.
"maybe, he's just not that into you."

fool.
傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

2009-09-06T02:19:00.005+08:00

exams exams exams.

i can sense the tension in everyone.

mugging. seen everywhere.

everyone's burning midnight oil and whatever other oil you want.

this seriously is killing me.

3 days straight papers.

which one to focus on? i don't know.

when you study all 3, it get mixed up.

if you focus on only one, the rest you can kiss goodbye.

why do i feel like we're sitting for something like O'Levels? NO JOKE.

now the thing is, nothing seems to get into my mind.

my brain is somehow DEAD. revive it please.

i suddenly had no mood to study.

too much of revision and studying makes you sick.

EXCUSES, i know.

COME ON WUIAN! ENDURANCE!!!

think of the fruits you can enjoy after this! whoooooo~

exams phobia. it always happens.

i'm just not as understanding.

i'm just THAT demanding, unreasonable, whatever you can name it, i am.

somehow, it's not the same.

when you knew that you're trying to be the person of someone's mind, he's not the one.

is it a need or a want?

as much as i know i want you, i'm afraid.

you're much more different.

you're a man in disguise? perhaps.

it requires a lot of courage.

promises? a pack of lies.

promises are meant to be broken and they don't exist at all.

once bitten, twice shy.

i know.

i trust you more than you know.

i don't know if you really trusted me.

i seriously don't know, i tried but it's hard.

your mask is difficult to remove.

reveal it and let me see please.

what's hidden behind it?

maybe, we're meant to be just a passed-by in each of our lifes.

2009-08-26T22:51:00.004+08:00

the last time i blogged, it's because of you.

now, it's the same reason again.

i tried so hard and knew that i did my best.

you could look me in the eyes and lie, can't you?

where's the promises?

i'm speechless.

2009-08-04T22:55:00.005+08:00

roses. it simply is nice and beautiful.
when you got hold of it, you'll come to know that it has thorns that pricks.
every rose has its thorns.
humans are like roses.
they hurt you just like how the thorns pricks you.
sometimes, they didn't mean it.
yet, there are times when they just did it on purpose.
when they need you, they are nice and sweet.
when they don't need you, they find you a nuisance and gives you attitude.

A SINGLE ROSE IN ANY COLOR-indicates simplicity and gratitude
2 ROSES - mutual feelings
3 ROSES - I love you
7 ROSES - I'm infatuated with you
9 ROSES - We'll be together forever
10 ROSES - You are perfect
11 ROSES - You are My Treasured One
12 ROSES - Be mine!
13 ROSES - Friends forever
15 ROSES - I'm truly sorry
20 ROSES - I'm truly sincere towards you
21 ROSES - I'm dedicated to you
24 ROSES - Forever yours
25 ROSES - Congratulations
36 ROSES - Remembering our romantic times
40 ROSES - My genuine love for you
50 ROSES - Unconditional love
99 ROSES - I will love you all the days of my life
101 ROSES - I'm completely devoted to you
108 ROSES - Will you marry me?
999 ROSES - I love you till the end of time

try?
how many times you said you would try?
trying is not enough.
doing it is what i want.
you're like a rose to me.
nice yet hurtful.

2009-08-01T03:26:00.004+08:00

back to blogging!
went to Orchard on Sunday.
didn't really get to shop around Ion, it's soooooo crowded!
all i could say was, Ion is like a pandora box!
sweet ♥

the past one week was rather hectic. (though i skipped lots of school)
was rushing out the project and doing powerpoint presentation slides on monday.
was supposed to meet 1130 yet i woke up like seriously late.
cabbed down to school and reached at around 1445.
had some discussion among the group and did the ppt slide.
went for LLA and guess what?! only me and eewen turned up! laughs.
sat there and played games while eewen had a good chat with Mr Simon.
so nice of him, he drove us to Tampines MRT! (it was me who asked him to drive us HAHA)

tuesday was the actual presentation.
i was at home sleeping and as usual, i was bombed by the rest on the phone.
woke up reeeeeeeeeal late and cabbed to school, again.
reached at around 1200, just in time for the presentation.
all i could say was, i totally suck at presentation.
oh well, at least we managed to answer the questions asked. i supposed.
for the assignments part, BEV article 1 and 2 done. left with the 3rd one to go!
10marks deduction if it is not handed in on monday, that's like crazy!
come on wuian! you can do it! YES!!!

i actually went to school on wednesday, what a surprise!
uncle drove me to school actually (i overslept, woke up at around 0745??)
only around 10 person turned up for LSM practical.
did the practical and i was like, the slowest =_= 4minutes 10seconds.
this just shows i've really skipped lotsa practical and don't even know how to control it.
the pallet wasn't in control! so much for not having a sense of direction...
met yanyan biscuit after school to shop!
i told her shop for a while only, in the end she accompanied me for 3hr plus despite being tired!
(simply because i can't stopped myself from buying and shopping!)
so nice of her! love her sooooooo much! ♥

it's Festival Of Praise once again!
met chloe & yanzhi and we trained down to Kallang.
saw jiacheng and cabbed down to Kallang Leisure Park.
had a quick dinner @ koufu!
went in to Singapore Indoor Stadium and settled down.
praise and worship, one after another.
Shine Like Stars, my favourite!
what to say~ it simply was great.
NO WORRIES! =D
you can't be worrying and joyful at the same time (:
it ended at nearly 2300.
we WALKED to Kallang MRT. just one word, HOT!
had mcdonalds with kenneth and jiacheng.
ate till around 0040 and walked home.
jonathan was around and he was still awake when i reached home!
what is a 4year old doing at such late hours? laughs.

tell me, if i could trust you?
am i the one expecting too much?
or it's simply because you've changed? towards me.
i can be generous but, not when it comes to this.
if only, you could make it clear and draw the line.
i can't accept such thing called soft hearted.
i just want to be selfish, for once.

2009-07-31T15:09:00.001+08:00

BESTIE AFIQ

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!

2009-07-22T00:11:00.003+08:00

MORON AMIRUL

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

2009-07-20T19:20:00.009+08:00

went to catch The Haunting in Connecticut @ Orchard Cineleisure last night.

i had no idea what this show was all about until i watched it.

it was rather a last minute decision though.

anyway, the show was not bad. quite shocking as well. laughs.

which is worst? not having a phone because it spoilt?

or having a phone when you can't send out msg and make a call?

my mum didn't went to pay the phone bills again.

i can't make any phone calls or send any msg AGAIN!

"it always started off with a lie and ends with ninety-nine more just to cover the very first one"

i heard something again today.

maybe, it was just a pack of lies all along. from you.

you can fool the world but you can't fool your heart.

you jolly well know if you're speaking the truth.

sometimes i wonder, why should i?

what more can i ask for?

where is this heading to?

maybe it's time to step back to reality?

seriously, i don't know what to say...

i'm in no position to say anything.

i'm just another somebody to be treated fairly from.

why do i have to be in this kind of situation again and again?

2009-07-18T20:08:00.002+08:00

it's saturday night for goodness sake and i'm at home!

stayed home and did LSM project.

so much more to do yet so little time. whose fault? sigh.

enough of the project part.

i wonder how's service today? hmmmmm...

anyway, i went to the doctor again today.

this time round was because of my back.

i felt like an old hag, aching all over all the time.

what to do~ it's a fact.

oh well, doctor said nothing serious.

just gotta take note for the time being. that's what they all said.

anyway, i wasn't in school yesterday. not again~ yes, again.

seriously speaking, i'm dreading to go school.

i was all alone at home sleeping and i heard something LOUD at 9plus in the morning.

the clock somehow fell and the glass broke into bits and pieces.

it fell right at the floor in front of my bed.

Thank God i was fine, safe and sound!

i just ignored it and went back to sleep, thinking it was a dream.

i woke every now and then, looking at the floor.

somehow trying to fool myself it was a dream but no! it's not!

just gotta step back to reality and clear the mess.

how miserable can this be? speechless.

school definitely is the last place i want to be at.

yet i felt so bad at times for not picking up my friends' phone calls.

think. i'm staying in Tampines and yet i'm always dragging myself to school.

what about those who stay at the other end of Singapore?

it triggers me. frankly speaking, i felt a sense of guilt.

of cause, of cause i'm afraid of being debarred from final year examinations.

still, it's not a motivation for me to drag my feet to school.

honestly, at times, i do hate myself for being like this.

it's killing me like seriously!!!

somehow, somewhere, there's this small lil voice in me.

sensitive or paranoid? who knows...

2009-07-16T23:36:00.006+08:00

A hug is a form of physical intimacy that usually involves closing or holding the arms around another person or group of persons. The hug is one of the most common human signs of love and affection, along with kissing. Unlike some other forms of physical intimacy, it is practiced publicly and privately without stigma in many countries, religions and cultures, within families, and also across age and gender lines.
Sometimes, hugs are a romantic exchange. Hugs may also be exchanged as a sign of support and comfort. A hug can be a demonstration of affection and emotional warmth, sometimes arising out of joy or happiness at meeting someone.
Brief in most cases, it is used to show many levels of affection. It is not particular to human beings alone, as there are many species of animals that engage in similar exchanges of warmth.
Hugging has been proven to have health benefits. One study has shown that hugs increase levels of oxytocin, and reduce blood pressure.
There are different variations of hugs. Prolonged hugging in a cozy, comfortable position is called cuddling. Spooning is a cuddling position, a kind of hugging when both the hugger and the hugged persons face the same direction, i.e., the front of one person is in contact with the back of the second one.

Results of Scientific Experiments
Various experiments have shown that touch can:
- make us feel better about ourselves and our surroundings
- have a positive effect in a child's development and IQ
- cause measurable physiological changes in the touchers and the touched

We are just beginning to understand the power of touch. While there are many forms of touching, we propose that hugging is a very special therapeutic touch that contributes in a major way to healing and health.

The Power of Hugging
Hugging accomplishes many things that you may never have thought of. It ...
- feels good
- dispels loneliness
- overcomes fear
- opens doors to feelings
- builds self-esteem (WOW, SHE actually wants to hug me!)
- fosters altruism (I can't believe it but I actually want to hug that old son-of-a-gun)
- slows down aging (huggers stay young longer)
- helps curb appetite (we eat less when we are nourished by hugs and when our arms are busy wrapped around others)
- More Good Things from Hugging
- eases tension
- fights insomnia
- keeps arms and shoulder muscles in condition
- provides stretching exercise if you are short
- provides stooping exercise if you are tall
- offers a wholesome alternative to promiscuity
- offers a healthy, safe alternative to alcohol and other drug abuse (better hugs than drugs!)
- affirms physical being
- is democratic (anyone is eligible for a hug)

Even More Benefits from Hugging
- is ecologically sound (it does not upset the environment)
- is energy-efficient (saves heat)
- is portable
- requires no special equipment
- demands no special setting (a fine place for a hug is any place from a doorstep to an executive conference room ... from a church parlor to a football field)
- makes happy days happier
- imparts feelings of belonging
- fills up empty places in our lives
- keeps on working to dispense benefits even after the hug is released

Hugging is healthy
Hugging is healthy. It helps the body's immune system, it keeps you healthier, it cures depression, it reduces stress, it induces sleep, it's invigorating, it's rejuvenating, it has no unpleasant side effects, and hugging is nothing less than a miracle drug.
Hugging is all natural. It is organic, naturally sweet, no pesticides, no preservatives, no artificial ingredients and 100 percent wholesome.
Hugging is practically perfect. There are no movable parts, no batteries to wear out, no periodic check-ups, low energy consumption, high energy yield, inflation proof, nonfattening, no monthly payments, no insurance requirements, theft-proof, nontaxable, nonpolluting and, of course, fully returnable.

2009-07-16T20:45:00.002+08:00

my good and faithful reader!

i am blogging! wheeeee~

spell H-A-P-P-Y!

finally Role Play 1 has come to an end!

this is killing me. acting seriously is so not me.

i know, i totally screwed up.

seriously, i tend to rush through when i'm nervous.

ahhhh~ oh well, it's OVER!

just look at how smart we are! =D

but...

LSM project has yet been completed =(

stress? is stress ever in my dictionary? i supposed.

i've yet to get all the informations when it's due on the 20th.

my family is out for a movie, what to do~

all i can do is sit here and watch my TV, like seriously!

OMG! i just realised i've got 2 more articles on Business Environment to complete!

grrrrr... i don't want to do it!

assignment, projects. HELLOOOOOOOO~ do i know you?

ignore me, i'm crazy. LOL. i just want to watch my show, that's it.

FORENSIC HEROES 2! =DDDDD

i need you ♥

2009-07-14T23:31:00.011+08:00

LAOPO YEW HAN YAN

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

(yan yan biscuit!)

2009-07-13T02:56:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAY

MAX LOW!

2009-07-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

our first ever decentralised service.

had lotsa fun on Saturday during ICMJ zone svc.

BACK TO RETRO + HUMAN MONOPOLY. how cool can that be.

people look at us like though we're some weirdos or aliens but, who cares.

it is only fun when everyone really joins in and enjoy themselves.

the weather may be bad. still, it's a time for us to get bonded (:

expo -> bedok -> kembangan -> eunos -> east coast beach

what a good tour in the east of Singapore. laughs.

it's the people that creates the atmosphere.

i may be an introvert but, i can be as crazy and noisy when i'm with the people i'm comfortable being with.

went to McDonalds for dinner and i had McFlurry. like finally!!! whoooo~

had a great time sharing with my toilet buddy, YanZhi! ♥

Steeeeeeeeeamboat.

celebrated Kenneth's birthday @ my place.

not really celebration but more of a fellowship.

great time spend on the last day of my holiday (:

had a round of TABOO with all the Singlish coming out from us. HAHA

(my second sister joined us during the game of TABOO!)

i really enjoyed myself a lot.

yet, the fact is... i still have to go back to school =x

i'm dreading to go back...

you never will understand.

2009-07-01T00:20:00.008+08:00

i'm feeling miserable. like, seriously.
what's wrong with me? i don't know.
went to CGH for appointment but doctor said i'm fine.
just gotta take note, if headache gets real worse then gonna go for X-RAY.
bahhhhhhhhhh~ this is killing me.
you were always not around when i needed you the most.
people, drown me with water please. i need plenty of it.
school's starting next week and i've got plenty of stuff to do!
projects are killing me. everything done so last minute. what to do~
hopefully i won't fall sick, cause my throat is terribly pain now. ulcers?
i'm looking forward to Saturday! anticipating! i don't want to fall sick!
yet, it starts at 1300!!! like OMG! i might still be sleeping! ahhhhhhhhh~
if you've been reading my blog, please wake me up at 1100 on Saturday! HAHA
oh ya! before i forgot all about it, i ate frolick's yogurt today! yum yum~

the fear in me. i'm afraid. you won't know.
it's been a while since i had this feeling.
sometimes, i wish to go back to square one.
not in a bad way but, in a better one.
just like the very first time we went out.
times where there are so much more to say.
much more attention spend.
slowly from there we can move on.
i want us to know more about one another.
don't ever try to run even before you can walk.
a step at a time, never rush things out.
maybe, you're just not sure of what i want or need?
sometimes, it's not what you hear or see.
it is the heart that says, somehow somewhere is not right.
sixth sense. don't ever doubt it.

P.S : i'm near contentment.

2009-06-27T23:05:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY

HENG SHI HAN!

2009-06-26T02:51:00.007+08:00

life is like a flower of which love is the honey.

people! If you've been reading my blog, I'm back!

well, it's been a while since i last blog.

basically i have been quite busy recently.

attending workshops and just started work.

this is killing me, like seriously.

I thought it would be easy, as in just working. I'm wrong.

there's so much for me too learn, just sooooo much to absorb.

look, I'm not trying to start ranting here (:

it is good to learn new things and expose to the world though.

anyway, i took MC and didn't went to work today.

headache kills. doctor said : "drink more water".

catch up with girlfriends last Friday. han yan, yiling and hui zhen.

had a mini chocolate fondue session over at my place.

though it was barely 2 hrs, it was great. We had lotsa fun!

tomorrow will be ice cream session with girlfriends! wheeeeeee~ anticipation.

2009 spells U-N-L-U-C-K-Y.

i had never have things my way or rather, rarely.

go through what i have went through and you'll know what unlucky really means.

maybe i'm not as unlucky as others.

still, lady luck is not on my side.

it is not our circumstances that create our discontent or contentment. it is us.

have you ever asked yourself,

are you contented with what you have in life now?

how do you define contentment?

what is true contentment?

many times we said we are contented but, do we really mean it?

there are three all-powerful evils: lust, anger and greed.

as human, we tend to be greedy.

we want more of what is given to us, thinking it is always not enough.

when you have a phone, you want it with camera, then with 3G,

followed by touch screen and the list goes on...

i wish to shout to the world and said i'm contented, but i know i'm not.

i am selfish when it comes to you. i admit it.

i don't see it coming.

i will be contented to know what's on your mind.

i will be contented to know that i'm the only one.

we tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have,

but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.

P.S : there is no end of craving. hence contentment alone is the best way to happiness. therefore, acquire contentment.

jealousy is not a sin.

it is only right to be jealous seeing the one you love being with others.

the only reason you're not jealous is because you don't love.

therefore, you don't care.

it is never wrong to feel jealous.

2009-06-26T01:21:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY

TAN YILING! (:

2009-06-15T01:09:00.006+08:00

whooooooooooo~

went to catch "DRAG ME TO HELL" @ Plaza Singapura.

catch it if you want some shocking.

some scenes were like eeeeeeeeeeewww, gross.

so don't treat yourself to a big feast before the show. HAHA

Christine had a great boyfriend indeed (:

anyway, i'm gonna attend workshop on tuesday!

like finally~ it's at common wealth =x so, gotta travel far~

looks like i've got lesser time to spend with you guys!

it's H-O-L-I-D-A-Y for goodness sake! ahhhhhhhhh~

i want to go to lots of places!

i sound like though i'm a tourist who wants to tour around Singapore. HAHA

more of you =x

if only, time would stop.

but i know and i know, it will never happen.

tick tock.. tick tock...

1 hour is like 10minutes to me.

i realised one thing.

whenever i wanted to do something and i didn't. i regret it.

people tend to take things for granted, or take things lightly.

they only realised it when they're gone.

i don't want the feelings to change.

it's all about believing and trusting.

seize the moment, cherish it.

you never know when is the next time you get to do it,

or when is last chance you get to do certain things.

why put on a frown when it takes lesser muscle to smile?

wear a smile, you never know if someone's looking =D

2009-06-14T12:42:00.005+08:00

whooooooooooo~
CELEBRITY WEEKEND!
Top Celebrities from Singapore, Indonesia and Taiwan.
had sooooooooooo much fun yesterday.
i'm like craaaaaaaaaaaaazy over MILK 牛奶! HAHA
i wasn't into Energy in the past, but upon seeing MILK yesterday, i went crazy.
He is sooooooooo CUTE, like seriously. i'm going gaga over him now. HAHA
the thing is, i got to take photo with him! but, i had no idea where to get the photo ):
guess what, he placed his hand on my waist. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
you, you, you! stop your jealousy! WAHAHAHA! i'm crazy
(i'm gonna post one photo of 牛奶 when liwei uploads the photo!)

finally, i saw my dear dear SHI HENG! i misssssss you so much can!
i told her about MILK and she say "really? den you not gonna bathe tonight right?"
laughs. how i wish~ I DID BATHE LAST NIGHT OKAY! HAHA

recently, i've been scaring myself.

first, i thought it was a cockroach when it was a tiny stone.

secondly, it was my own shadow which i thought was some lizards.

lastly, it's a real one. a prayer mantis.

i was alighting the bus last night and there stood a prayer mantis.

therefore, i hesitated whether to alight the bus or not.

still, i alighted. hoping the prayer mantis would not jump on me =_=

my mum alighted from the bus behind and we met under the void deck.

i was so distracted by it, i didn't even realise she was around.

my eyes are on the TV now.
i'm not gonna continue blogging. HAHA.
i'm gonna catch "DRAG ME TO HELL" tonight! wheeeeeeeeee~
goodbye my good and faithful readers! tata! =D

2009-06-11T16:39:00.010+08:00

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
This person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away..
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on..

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season..

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
Things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
Love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,
Whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Clairvoyant
Adjective
Of or relating to clairvoyance.
Having the supposed power to see objects or events that cannot be perceived by the senses.
Noun
A person, such as a medium, possessing the supposed power of clairvoyance.

2009-06-10T22:41:00.005+08:00

finally, tests are over. self declare holiday!
went Tampines One to meet yanyan biscuit!
she accompanied me to get my clothes and stuff
really enjoyed her company (:
ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ i want to go shopping like crazy!
GSS is going on for goodness sake! =x

i almost cried because of your words.
just who am i to you?
i seriously am not a "cannot be bothered" person.
how well do you know me?
or rather, how well do we know one another?
i'm having a headache now, it's just like the whirlwind.
i may not be one who is good at words.
i may not be one who is good at consoling.
but i do care for you, and i mean it.
i want to be that lovable girl you mentioned.
but. maybe. i'm just afraid? i don't know.
once bitten, twice shy.
remember the dancing steps?
when i move forward, you step back.
now i'm saying. we're moving together (:
everyone is different, everyone is unique.
different people has got different gifts and talents.
maybe, i'm just not one who's gifted in this area.
i just want to be the one you enjoy being with.
the one whom you feel comfortable around with.
and not one whom you have to hide and avoid from certain things.
please, don't let it ever happen again. ♥

1 Corinthians 13:4
"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up"

what i want is.
you to pay attention to my needs.
sometimes, little actions triggered my heart.

2009-06-08T20:44:00.005+08:00

met up with girlfriends on friday ♥
love them soooooooooo much! miss those days =(
we are all on the different paths of our lives
be it good or bad, life still goes on for us
darling and laopo, i'll reconsider it. like seriously.
i know i'll regret because of this decision.
but, what if i regret for not doing it?
this suck totally.

judgemental
Adjective
making judgements, esp. critical ones, about other people's conduct

i wonder. am i being too judgemental?
or it's just that people nowadays too judgemental?
why do people judge one another by the looks and appearance?
that's easy.
the way you dress and express yourself portray you.
people always said, never judge a person by it's look.
never judge a book by it's cover.
but, it is easier said than done.
we can say we are not judging but action speaks louder than words.
when we say we don't judge, we're lying.
how is it possible for us not to judge?
we do judge. even the lil ones is considered.
when we saw someone with piercings and tattoos, what's the first impression? think.
every time, i tell myself.
i don't even know this person, so he/she is like a blank piece of paper to me.
but often, i got those papers stained right before we got to know each other.
who am i to say these then?
i know what people are gonna say when they read this.
hypocrite.
well, think about it. who's not?
we are humans after all. we have emotions.
we get affected easily, or rather by all these.

hypocrite
Noun
a person who pretends to be what he or she is not [Greek hipokrinein to pretend]

Matthew 5:42-44 "You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.'
But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,"

all along, i am still me. i didn't changed. not at all.
i am not a "cannot be bothered" person.
i have my reasons for certain things.
yes, i will study hard for the test.
thanks, i know you care ♥

2009-05-27T12:29:00.004+08:00

please, don't let go ♥

she forgot about one thing

she had a fall and sprained her ankle on Sunday

every one's reaction was OMG! not again~

ya. again. it's just so normal, isn't it? HAHA

she not only sprained her ankle

she injured her left leg as well and it hurts ):

she's just soooooooo careless =x

anyway, she skipped school today (another scolding to get)

Wednesday is practical day

and she bet she missed out all the fun

OMG! she can't skip another day or lesson anymore

95% attendance! she don't want to be debarred from examinations!

AND! she promise her yanyan biscuit she can only skip 3 times for this year!

arghhhhhhh! 3 times! NO MORE!!!

WUIAN!!! stop procrastinating! stop. stop. STOP!

TAN HUI ZHEN! i miss you sooooooooo muchie!

don't sad okie? here i am to blog about you! HEHE

come find me during your holiday! but. i can't jump ):

so sad right. haha. meeeeeeeeeet ups!

yes laopo! i will study! study hard =D

i have my darling and laopos to stand by me no matter what!

my favourite ♥

i will bear it in mind what you've told me.

yes. i trust you.

you said.

the reason is, i'm different ♥

i'm glad. it touches me.

because you're willing to share.

please.

make sure you meant what you said.

i believe, the day will come.

will it?

2009-05-26T16:12:00.003+08:00

OMG! i over slept this morning. again.

lesson starts at 0800, and i woke up at 0730

thank you dingding! who woke me up =D

(if not i'll still be in my lala land~ dreaming away)

once again, uncle drove me and dingding to school

reached at around 0830, thanks to that traffic jam

first lesson of SVE was boring~!! should've stayed home and sleep

oh well, second lesson of SVE was held at LT5

as usual, watched videos on customer service

MISS SWAN again~

what's happening to me?!! i'm feeling soooooooo tired ):

skipped last 2 lesson of LSM and went home to sleep

(i'm so gonna get yelled at after posting this)

everyone was burying their head, doing the test

yet down here, i'm sleeping like a log at home

how stupid is this? i just don't feel like attending LSM

ah pa called at 2plus

i was like half asleep and listening to what he's saying

he asked where i went, i said home cos i having headache

(i didn't lie okay! i'm having a slight headache. just a lil bit)

don't know what rubbish he's saying

just told me to look for him tomorrow

anyway i woke up at 3plus

feel my head spinning. 10 times faster than the ferris wheel you see

TAN JIA HUI! don't worry okay! (just think of me! muahaha!)

you're so gonna do well for the actual 'O' Level ORAL! =D

YEW HAN YAN! your next presentation, you're so gonna do much better! XD

we should communicate in english during the next meet up!

it benefits us all! LOL! esp. WATT! hahaha

my favourite ♥

all this. is because i care.

if i don't care, would i bother?

how much do you trust me?

just how much can i trust you?

i don't know.

everytime i said i trusted,

do you believe?

and everytime i said i trusted,

you failed to give a sense of security.

who is clinging to who?

i can't figure it out.

what will happen if you ever come across this?

will things ever change?

i chose to believe myself,

i chose to trust.

this is my choice, my decision.

please, don't let me down ♥

2009-05-21T17:39:00.004+08:00

Today, we have bigger houses and smaller families.

More conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees, but less common sense.

More knowledge, but less judgement.

We have more experts, but more problems.

More medicine, but less wellness.

We spend too recklessly; laugh too little, drive too fast,

get angry too quickly, stay up too late, read too little,

watch TV too much, and pray too seldom!

We've multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too little, and lie too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.

We've added years to life, not life to years.

We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers;

wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.

We spend more, but have less.

We buy more, but enjoy it less.

We've been all the way to the moon and back,

but have trouble crossing the street to meet our neighbours.

We've conquered outer space, but not inner space.

We've split the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, learn less; plan more, but accomplish less.

We've learned to rush, but not to wait.

We have higher incomes, but lower morals.

We build computers to hold more information,

to produce more copies, but have less communications.

We are long on quantity, but short on quality.

There are the times of fast foods and slow digestion;

tall men and short characters.

More leisure and less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.

Two incomes, but more divorces.

Fancier houses, but broken homes.

Don't keep anything for special occasions,

because every day you live is a special occasion.

Search for knowledge. Read more.

Sit on your front porch and admire the view

without paying attention to your needs.

Spend more time with your family and friends.

Eat your favourite foods and visit the places you love.

Life is again of moments of enjoyment, not only about survival.

Use your crystal goblets.

Don't save on your best perfume, use it every time you feel you want it.

Remove from your vocabulary phrases like "of these days" and "someday".

Write that letter you've thought about writing.

Tell your family and friends how much you love them.

Don't delay anything that adds laughter and joy to your life.

Every day, every hour, and every minute is special.

You don't know if it will be your last.

2009-05-21T17:11:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY
LIM JING MEI JAMIE!

it's been a while since i last blogged

oh well, i don't know. life is all about school now

i'm tired. like seriously.

physically, mentally, emotionally, even spiritually.

for the pass 3 days, i was late for school.

can you see how much i hate going to school?

finally, i went back to Springfield to get my testimonial and cert.

got the 2008 year book as well.

i miss the times there. the people. it's never the same.

hanyan came over to find me and i walked her back to TP.

so funny la! should've took bus to look for her instead. HAHA

shared a lot with her within the short 15min.

after that she went to take test in school.

i miss her soooooo much!

(LAOPO! come, let's go! i bring you go CHEERS! haha)

lesson was at 0900 today and i woke up at 0820

got out of bed and rushed myself

thankfully, uncle drove me to school

i reached at 0900, i wasn't late!

but my hair was wet and messy like crazy.

felt so sleepy in school

lessons are getting more and more boring

and i just realised there's a BEV test tomorrow =_=

i'm so going to flunk this test cause i know nuts about BEV

i skipped last 2 lesson of SVE and went home

suuuuuuuuper tired. don't know why.

gonna take a short nap and study later. HAIS~

UL0904D

2009-05-12T22:00:00.004+08:00

school school school!

(prince! mr simon neo! lindy! ding ding! isz! fir! ah lian!)

lessons were rather boring these days.

fell asleep during SVE @ LT5! HAHA

(i realised it only after missing out 2 points!)
went for the BL interview today, SCARY~

(i suck at interviews HAHA)

school ended at nearly 2pm

headed to school library for small discussion

took lots of photos as well! HEHE

oh well, i've got research to do

but i'm sooooo lazy!

my brain's not functioning at the moment...

i want to sleep for... 24hours! LOL (as if~)

lalala~ i'm so lazy to blog now. HAHA

shall blog again. TATA!

2009-05-04T13:50:00.005+08:00

our love was too passionate it couldn't last

it's 1350 and i'm still at home

wondering why??!!?

just not feeling well, gonna see a doctor later

i'm watching Paris Hilton's My New BFF on MTV Asia now =D

my head is spinning and spinning

like the merry-go-round you sat when you were five

almost threw up just now while bathing, almost

not to worry, i'm not having fever!

(DARLING! NOT SWINE FLU OKAY! haha)

didn't sleep well last night (only pig knows why)

thank you pig! piglet will cheer up! (:

it took me long to blog this post

(was watching TV and chatting with DARLING & DEAR DEAR!)

going to see doctor now

to be continued...

i'm back after 2 hrs -_-

went to the polyclinic at Tampines

took me long, reeeeeeeeeal long

this 2 hrs didn't really include travelling time cos i took cab

not much of a problem, just gastric pain

it went on holiday and now it came back to look me up LMAO

yawn~ i'm feeling sleepy now *rub eye*

2009-05-03T00:14:00.003+08:00

saying goodbye is a second chance

OH MAN! THE WEATHER IS KILLING ME!

let it snow let it snow let it snow! LOL

(like as if it snows in Singapore)

stayed up and made birthday card last night

saw a super BIG cockroach in the kitchen! RAWR~

always saw cockroaches while making birthday card -_-

mum killed the cockroach! KUDOS TO HER!

(she's no longer afraid of it, cos no one went to her rescue the last time)

she didnt want to care about me at first

she said it's revenge for ignoring her that time LOL

finished the card and slept 6plus in the morning

(didn't have ideas and was watching TV, thats's why)

didn't want to wake up so early

yet my phone kept vibrating at 12plus

messages were coming in one after another

super irritating can! (it's only when i'm super tired and want to sleep)

anyway, went for service in the late noon

headed to Tampines Mall to fellowship after service

took lots of photos with Chloe and JiaHui

reached home at 10plus

i'm very tired actually HAIS

@*&#^$%#*&@!

can i not go to school? (and the answer obviously is NO)

i thought it was all right

yet things seemed to be different

you think that i'm strong, you're wrong

2009-04-30T22:41:00.002+08:00

went out with my LAOPOs on tuesday

school ended @ 1330 (30min earlier!)

headed home to bathe and changed

meet hanyan in bus 69 and headed to PS to meet huizhen

walked around and the girls are feeling tired

so decided to go for dinner @ Pastamania!

went to take lots of photo after that

did lots of jump shot

we suck at it la

didn't catch the timing HAHA

but huizhen is just so good at it

she got it right almost all the time LOL

went back to tampines after taking photos

went to shop a while @ Tampines One

seriously, some thing super funny happened at TOPSHOP

SHHHHHHH~

IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE OUR SECRET!!!

(LAOPOS! MUST KEEP IT A SECRET!!! HAHA)

it just feel so good to be with them =D
we can do what we want

say what we feel

missed those secondary school days =(

we were chatting about those days over dinner

the ups and the downs, everything

thinking back, we were so childish and rebellious HAHA

we shared about our new school and stuff

oh well, what to do~

we're already where we are, it's a fact

just gotta make sure we do well in our schools

jiayou laopos!!! wait for me!

2 years later i'll join you guys in the poly! woohoo~

HANYAN! MUST DO WELL IN TP!

HUIZHEN! MUST DO WELL IN RP!

YILING! MUST DO WELL IN NYP!

NATALIE! JIAYOU TOGETHER IN ITE CE! GO POLY TGT!

XIUYUAN! JIAYOU FOR YOUR O'S!

let's all meet up one day!!!

especially TAN YILING! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN???

I MISS YOU LA!

2009-04-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY

CHLOE YEONG!

2009-04-22T18:32:00.007+08:00

today's lesson was at 0800

woke up at 0630 (i think so)

was so redundant to wake up =(

my eyes almost shut up during lessons

thank God it was only a 4hr lesson day!

did nothing much for LSM actually

was just going through the safety rules

(no F1 race in the warehouse! HAHA. that's super lame)

every Wednesday will be practical day! WOOHOO~

(no need to bring the super thick textbook)

quite fun to be in the warehouse

(provided there's air-con)

BEV was rather boring

don't understand what AH PA was saying

all i knew was me and eewen were very tired HAHA

headed home after school

fell asleep while using com WAHAHA

slept for 2hr plus COOL~

was supposed to make birthday card

(yes, you know who you are! upcoming bday girl!)

but super duper tired

gonna get it done later (:

(school ends at 1730 tmrw, doubt i want to do it tmrw)

gonna do a masquerade mask as well

(sister's 21st birthday theme, how cool can that be)

being so random now, i'm feeling super hungry! =x

studying makes you feel hungry HAHA

i always feel so hungry when i came home from school OOPS =x

curry curry! yum yum! i'm having curry for dinner!!! WHEEEEEE~

WAHAHA WAHAHA WAHAHA

i'm off to watch TV! LALALA~

2009-04-21T17:33:00.002+08:00

paint me back the colours

2009-04-20T20:19:00.006+08:00

i'm done with my stuff! woohoo~

haven't been blogging for long

today's already the second week of school

not bad, i went to school everyday last week!

so proud of myself! wheeeeeeeee~

school wasn't as bad as i thought =)

first 2 days was orientation

did all the ice breaking and teambuilding stuff

what can i say~

UL0904D IS FULL OF COOL PEOPLE~

today's lesson was at 2pm

was supposed to be 2hr but it ended early

feel like a waste of time

but, we completed unit 1 of logistics & supply chain management

that's fast man! HAHA

oh well, the time table is just a temporary one

we'll get a new one for next week onwards anway

i wish and i wish, for a better timetable! =D

huizhen smsed me today and asked if wanted to meet her and hy

i was already at home and needed to do some stuff

so didn't went =(

so gonna meet them and chat about our new school! WOOHOO~

gonna post the photos of us @ K session!

looks like it doesn't matter anymore

2009-04-20T19:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY

KOH HUI SAN FERNANSA!

2009-04-12T01:57:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY

KENNETH HO WEI KIEN!

2009-04-12T01:31:00.001+08:00

i miss you badly

2009-04-08T00:07:00.005+08:00

went out with my 老婆(s), HANYAN & HUIZHEN today!

MISS THEM SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!

was supposed to meet 1200 but i woke up at 1145

so nice of them to wait for me! hehe

headed down to AMK

bought the movie tickets and ate mac for lunch

watched 爱到底

it's a movie of 4 short stories

i can say... it's not as nice as expected

oh well, that's not important

what's important is who i spent time with! HAHA

I LOVE YOU TWO! *MUACKS*

went window shopping and headed home after that

took bus 22 all the way back to tampines

reached home at 8plus i think?

had a great time talking and playing

reminisce the past (:

it felt just like those secondary days

ate mac, watched movie, slack around

that's the way~ ah ha ah ha~ i like it~ LOL

gonna meet them again tmrw! WOOHOO~

we've came up with this idea

that we're gonna meet up at least once in 2 weeks!

awesome!!!

if only darling xiuyuan were here!

DARLING! COME PLAY WITH ME! =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PST ARIES!

5 more days

2009-04-06T01:34:00.005+08:00

you're just like a chameleon

one more week
just one more week before school starts
i sooooooooooo not feel like going to school
this feeling sucks man
horrid
if only time would stop here
yea, that's ridiculous

zoooooooomed~

6 months of holiday's coming to an end

what have i been doing during this period of time?

rubbish

i want to go back to before

take me there

what am i gonna do this week?

i did the housechores today...

just to make sure i've got more time to play

i want to go marina barrage

i need to go ikea

DARLING! COME PLAY WITH ME!

gonna meet dear dear shihan to catch up

meet my girls as well, maybe on tues

easter svc on friday and saturday

oh well

though i hate this feeling

i'm still quite excited about what i have in future

thats soooooooo contradicting

anyway, i know i won't be alone =D

and jiahui has got 22hrs for me! HAHAHAHA

找回最初的感觉

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PST. ZHUANG!

2009-03-31T15:17:00.005+08:00

sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye

i don't want to know

2009-03-30T21:57:00.008+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY

ALLAN TAN CHONG LU!

P.S: i remember it every year! =D

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY CJ!

2009-03-28T00:29:00.004+08:00

DARLING!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

you're officially EIGHTEEN!

bet you're sooooooooooo HAPPY! =D

all these years, we've gone through so much

all the ups and downs

you're always so forgiving towards me

thanks for always being there!

the one that i always depend on

yet the one who taught me to be independent

the "handkerchief" that always wipe my tears

the one who always bring joy to me

always the entertainer!

thanks for bringing me to this big family

we may not be in the same cg

not studying in the same college anymore

but, our friendship still remain

& it'll grow stronger and stronger

words are never enough to express my gratitude

just want to say

I LOVE YOU! x 1,000,000 hehe

i will always be HERE for you!!!

anything, just give me a call!

please, take good care of yourself (:

hope you've enjoyed your birthday!

ate many many cakes yeah? haha

sorry for the belated post! hehe

LADIES NIGHT!

2009-03-22T19:59:00.008+08:00

HuiShan and XiuYuan's Birthday Celebration

@ St James, The Station Kitchen!

first time going out with the whole group of them

had a fun time laughing and playing =D

PLEASE DON'T STOP THE MUSIC! HAHA

LiYun, Joyce, HuiFen, SiQi & Elise left at 12plus

that left with the 6 of us chilling at the alley bar

a very nice place indeed! (:

cabbed down to Changi Airport T2's Starbucks @ 3plus

slack around at airport

send Elise off at 7plus in the morning

reached home at 0830

super duper tired

BABY JONATHAN was awake when i reached home!

i was right indeed HAHA

he came and woke me up every 1 hour

i was a little irritated but it's alright HAHA

having headache now

my throat is super pain. SUPER

i can feel the pain while swalllowing my saliva

think i'm falling sick soon

there's power in confession

so, I AM NOT FALLING SICK! HAHA

i've taken the first step =D

a taker, or a giver

learn to be one who gives and take

and not one who only knows how to take

it's only when you're good to people

then you'll be treated back the way you treated others

if you want a smile, give a smile!

if you need a hug, give a hug!

indeed, you reap what you sow

a thousand sorry

2009-03-20T01:04:00.002+08:00

Never wait until tomorrow to hug someone you could hug today,
because when you give one, you get one right back your way.

2009-03-19T18:29:00.005+08:00

sometimes, i talked too much

resulting in offending some one

yet, there're times when i'm speechless

for me, starting a conversation is tough

having the conversation going on is MUCH more difficult

communication is the key to better relationship

i've gotta learn to speak,

to start a conversation,

learn to speak in ways people want to hear

and not ways they don't understand

teach me how to communicate

i want to be an introvert no more

make me stronger.

for i know, you love me.

John 3:16

2009-03-19T17:50:00.000+08:00

The shortest distance between two people is a smile.

2009-03-19T00:18:00.003+08:00

These 2 days of Evangelism Xplosion is great!

it may be a bit tiring

but it's worth the tiredness =D

we all know that LOVE is the greatest

but many times we've failed to do so

because we chose people to love

teach me how to love, like You've loved me

for i am down, You filled my days with joy

and i know, even if everyone walks away

You will still be there

there were times when i break down

and You were there

just to say "I love you"

for i know, You care

2009-03-09T15:27:00.000+08:00

It's better to make the world smile at what you say than laugh at what you do.

MY LIL MONSTER

2009-03-09T02:07:00.005+08:00

BABY JONATHAN! =D

the lil lil monster

woke me up from my beauty sleep early in the morning!

he's sick, yet so energetic
i underestimated him, HAHA

as early as 0904, pulled my lovely blanket away

and dragged me out to the living room

watched him play with his cars

and the uno stacko blocks

he turned the whole house into nicoll highway!

the moment i see his cars all over the place

and some overturned

i was like, OH MAN~

*headache*

too bad i didn't take down the "scene" LOL

luckily i managed to catch a 2hr nap in the noon =)

went to TM for dinner, den to TOYSRUS

sis bought him 5 mini toy cars and 1 lumborghini

the black lumborghini, that's just soooooo cool

too bad, she bought the yellow one instead

i sound like i wanted it, HAHA

oh well~

it may be tiring, but it is worth it (:

seeing the smile and joy in him is what makes me happy!

2009-03-08T03:02:00.001+08:00

Children are like tender seedlings.

They must be cultivated with care if they are to sprout and grow.

2009-03-08T01:22:00.003+08:00

TAN JIA HUI!

the one who always bring joy to me!

always there when i need her

a great listener and friend indeed

all i need is a heart to heart talk =D

having a talk doesn't always mean that there's problem

having problems doesn's always mean we need solutions as well

as a woman, all we need is a pair of listening ear (:

2009-03-07T02:10:00.002+08:00

its 0210 now and i'm still wide awake!

went to gluttons bay @ esplanade for dinner

slack around that area and went to raffles city's starbucks

catched the last train and headed home

i walked home from interchange today! =D

jiacheng send me home

had a great time chatting with him

reached home, rest a while and bathed

it took me 30min to blog this post! LOL

oh well, i'm going to bed soooooon

gonna fetch JONATHAN home tomorrow morning! =)

i'm so tired now, my eye lids are feeling heavy

goooooooooooodbye

off to lala land~

2009-03-05T17:52:00.002+08:00

was supposed to meet chloe in the morning to swim

but, we postpone it

stayed at home sleeping and doing some stuff =)

watching 娛樂百分百 now

小豬&小鬼 so cute and funny! LOL

today is thursday

ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM~

weekend is arriving!

JONATHAN JONATHAN JONATHAN! =D

i want to see my baby jonathan! hehe

2009-03-05T17:50:00.001+08:00

"A smile is like looking in a mirror.If you give a smile you're likely to get one back!"

2009-03-04T23:41:00.003+08:00

had Sakae tea buffet this afternoon @ City Link =D

(with shiheng, maxy, ah heng (vint), and joshua)

finally get to see my beloved SHIHENG after so long!

had a great time fellowshipping and eating (:

slacked around that area and left for riverwalk at 18:10

BS was great

and the room was fully packed!

we had a great time learning and laughing as well =)

*be prepared if you want to go for mission trips!

imagine the toilet is half your classroom size

with just 2 wooden plank for you to balance

and everyone settles their business in it,

having a conversation while doing the business (be it big or small)?

what if you lose your balance and fell?

that's gross.

i need your strength.

i need stronger faith.

2009-03-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

"A Smile is a powerful weapon. You can even break ice with it."

2009-03-04T01:55:00.003+08:00

"Wear a smile and have friends; wear a scowl and have wrinkles." - George Elio

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2009-03-02T21:36:00.002+08:00

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"Let a smile be your umbrella on a rainy day." - Lawrence Welk